Hello Hello.
Happy New Year.
Today (or should i say yesterday) was the first day of the year 2010 and things have already been going downhill for me. But of course, no one wants to read about all the sappy things in my life as of now- at least not in this post.
But to cut to the chase;
A few days ago I was reading old posts from my old xanga account(s). As i was reading them the more i found myself reading less and less which was kind of disappointing. When I first started blogging, I usually gave every detail that happened that day that while reading it, i could actually replay that memory in my head as if it was happening now. But the more i read the details we less to the point where a day's post is a sentence or word. I do not know why things ended that way but all that matters is now.
This year i made a promise to myself that if i were to blog, it would actually be meaningful, thrurough and has a point/lesson learned or whatever so that maybe in a decade or so when i decide to look back here, i can actually keep myself entertained for a bit (knowing myself).
Earlier today i had a topic that i wanted to blog about, but my memory has been really bad since ive been smoking those cancer sticks. I'm trying to quit and i'm really disappointed in myself when i bought a pack today, some will power i have.
i;d probably feel shitty and feel the more to quit if some random person came up to me one day and told me that i should quit and give me a sad story.. but of course it won't happen in this city. people here are too ... i can't really say stuck up.. theyre more to themselves. as if, they only care about themselves and no one else. Either that or they just don't have the balls to do it. I mean people tell me i shouldn't smoke but how they say it.. its more as if 'oh, dont smoke' and that's it. knowing myself, i wouldn't really take it seriously unless someone threaten our relationship or something like that. But then again, those don't work either.. i tried to make an ex stop smoking and look at me now, im just like him. I can't really say i hate him for it... but i can say i hate him for not listening to me cause now, im just a mess.
Today (or should i say yesterday) was the first day of the year 2010 and things have already been going downhill for me. But of course, no one wants to read about all the sappy things in my life as of now- at least not in this post.
But to cut to the chase;
A few days ago I was reading old posts from my old xanga account(s). As i was reading them the more i found myself reading less and less which was kind of disappointing. When I first started blogging, I usually gave every detail that happened that day that while reading it, i could actually replay that memory in my head as if it was happening now. But the more i read the details we less to the point where a day's post is a sentence or word. I do not know why things ended that way but all that matters is now.
This year i made a promise to myself that if i were to blog, it would actually be meaningful, thrurough and has a point/lesson learned or whatever so that maybe in a decade or so when i decide to look back here, i can actually keep myself entertained for a bit (knowing myself).
Earlier today i had a topic that i wanted to blog about, but my memory has been really bad since ive been smoking those cancer sticks. I'm trying to quit and i'm really disappointed in myself when i bought a pack today, some will power i have.
i;d probably feel shitty and feel the more to quit if some random person came up to me one day and told me that i should quit and give me a sad story.. but of course it won't happen in this city. people here are too ... i can't really say stuck up.. theyre more to themselves. as if, they only care about themselves and no one else. Either that or they just don't have the balls to do it. I mean people tell me i shouldn't smoke but how they say it.. its more as if 'oh, dont smoke' and that's it. knowing myself, i wouldn't really take it seriously unless someone threaten our relationship or something like that. But then again, those don't work either.. i tried to make an ex stop smoking and look at me now, im just like him. I can't really say i hate him for it... but i can say i hate him for not listening to me cause now, im just a mess.
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